I take more baths than I ever did
even with a lack of rubber ducks,
practice breast strokes, homemade rain.
Now, when I breathe into porcelain skin
of a full tub, quiet currents take me.
This is the closest I come to clean slate.
To notice my two fleshy peaks rise
and fall, is to know my own body,
I listen to what’s submerged, to water
slipping down drains that belch
low croaks between lily pads of soap.
It’s a subtle sound of swallowing
a lost song, of dead poets whispering.
I’ve ignored poets for most of my life
because I couldn’t bear to face their sense,
but I sensed them, especially in old libraries.
Did you know if you press your ears to walls,
you can hear pipes clearing their throats?
The gurgle in my ears is intergalactic.
No one will ever find this place on a map,
and it’s a crying, hell, it’s a sobbing shame
because the fizzle of salt is good for your skins.
My toes look ancient under these dim lights,
and the curtain has a pattern of tight curls
that look like a doodle of a loose brain.
I could have drawn that, I start to think,
see, and there’s that pesky “I” again.
When does the self become so persistent?
What if when I go low, beneath the bath’s bowels,
I reach the highest heights I’ll ever know?
That’s enough indulgence for one day.
When I pull the stopper, a miniature tornado
surges between my legs, and time begins to drain.